the deep breath before the plunge

it looks like time for a serious coming to Jesus meeting with myself. for real. no more playing around. no more playing house. its time for me to be who i am and deal with it and the person i am supposed to be with. people will think i am insane and i am prepared for that. i dont expect this going back and moving forward thing to be easy or logical or anything of the sort. i just expect it to be right and i know it is and it has always been right. its bizarre to have everyone else around you see it and for you to be blinded by fear or insecurity or rebellion. so here we go- trail by fire thing. as far as i can tell this is about to be six months of soul bearing, learning how to communicate, and being stripped to the core.
.about face.